That's what she said

Cruel world

2012-02-13T00:31:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA THIS PHOTO IS FOR ALL OF YOU.

Cos I know everyone likes my chibai face -.-

Ok da bye I'm a busy person.

Actually not.I'm constantly on nagging euphoria by my parents for being so so lazy! Haahaha.My snacking habit is getting stronger too,so I'm fat now.True story,that.My hair,nowadays,is so damn flat.It just sticks to my head and made it insanely stick straight.I sumpah I didn't rebond sial.What telah happen?!

And Sis just told me something that triggered my memory.She said she looked through my Dad's birth cert and found out that my grandma's race is not Boyanese,but actually British descent.Actually I knew my grandma is somehow a caucasian because my aunt told me,which I laughed it off at that time.See see,I told ya I have some English blood in me! *hmph* Still don't want to believe me *roll eyes* Maybe that's why I'm so pretty.Hehehehhehe! Sorry for having self-confidence.

Gazillion thoughts.

2012-02-10T17:20:00.000+08:00

Jjujjujjuuuuuu~~~

I'm fucking jobless and I don't know what to do! I've been seeking refuge here and there,from Woan Yee to Si Jia to my sis and to Nazihah,but I still can't get a fucking job! Bitch. I don't want to work at the zoo nor under wingtai. Mom won't let me do late night & fastfood jobs.So I'm stuck.Might as well not work,but I need money for my F21 and Oakham Market hahahahah!

So this is how the story went

I met someone by accident who blew me away

It was in the darkest of my days

When you took my sorrow and you took my pain

And buried them away.

I woke up feeling heavy-hearted

I'm going back to where I started

The morning rain

And though I wish that you were here

On that same old road that brought me here

Is calling me home

A fucking masterpiece of human descent,Adele is.

Come,let my boyfriend,Nam Woo Hyun,share his love for me to all of you.

Lost in time.

2012-02-08T20:49:00.002+08:00

HEYYYAAAA!

Yep you guess it.I lurbbes my fav girls,Atiqa and Irdina! We went shopping together at F21 haahahah.It shall be my next frequent haunt after Bugis St.Maybe I am so accustomed to working at DP and seeing overpriced apparels that I have this mindset that F21 is the cheapest yet branded line of clothes.

Okay so yeah.Life's good.Been lazing around since I'm jobless now.Haish.It's now eat,sleep,shit,shopping and internet life for me.See how fat I've become.

[no make-up,but liking my all-back? hahahah]

I'm irritated.

If you don't want to talk,I shall fucking mute myself.You're sucha petty disaster and you make use of your children; being nice to one party while not on good terms with another just to spite guilt.You're really,really childish.

Someone I can call mine.

A dream to fulfill

2012-02-04T20:43:00.002+08:00

If I have a boyfriend,I'd go on a date with him to Marina Barrage

We can all be free souls. Free to live and free to dream.

Lol just kiddingggg! That day will never come -_-

My sedentary life

2012-02-03T19:39:00.001+08:00

And so if I get another chance to work under WingTai again,which I don't think so,I'd have Topshop/Topman as first choice,followed by Warehouse then Uniqlo. No more,NO MORE Dorothy Perkins. I'm sick and tired of demanding jobs!

Hi I got Integrated Facility Management at TP. And to think one of my baby,Tan Ming Hui,also got into the same course. So we're gonna love each other until we get our diplomas,then we'll try throw each other into the Singapore River. I know I'd definitely regret saying this later in the future but I'm oh so excited so here it goes...CAN SCHOOL START NOW INSTEAD OF IN 2 MONTHS' TIME?!

Visited SiJia's last day at work @ Velocity's Baskin Robbins just now with Atiqa. Ate this pancake-flavoured ice-cream which is,under this bimbo's recommendation,the flavour of the month. It just melts in my mouth sial! Damnnnn!!! And she was so dumb trying to scoop the ice-cream from the almost empty barrel. So bimbotic. Just so dumb blonde of her -.-

Ok can't wait for school to start. Really! I need to start shopping now!

irritated

2012-02-01T23:46:00.000+08:00

FUCK.
SERIOUS SIAL.CAN FUCKING STOP TWEETING ABOUT ONE DIRECTION EVERY TIME,MINUTE,SECOND,HOUR WHATEVER?! SERIOUSLY.
I'M SICK OF ALL THIS.KEEP YOUR FANDOM TO YOURSELF.

Revealed

2012-01-27T07:34:00.001+08:00

Hahhaha kekeke I'm so blunt.
My mysterious Langkawi guy is none other than Alif,the very own waiter who gave me the number on the napkin!

Okaylah. He's quite cute in real life but nah-uh on photos,truthfully speaking. He keep saying that I'm 'cmil'='comil'='comel'='cute'. I guess,that's how malaysians praise each other cos the coffee shop guy also said to me,"comeyh noh". Hahahahahhah!

Yes,call me cheap,despo and whatever. I'm that kind of girl. I'm the type who fall for sugar-coated words and I give in easily to cute people. Lol fuck,I'm just socialising and I'm happy wheee~ So now I got an international friend :B

Knick knacks

2012-01-26T07:28:00.001+08:00

This is based on my own peers and experience : Generally,Singaporean males tremendously lack respect for females. And the females does not know how to appreciate the males' efforts.

And a particular group will always seek attention and fish for compliments. Like,"OHHH I'm just not pretty enough!" or/and "Why nobody likes my status?/Why nobody retweets my tweet?" Seeeeriously? Whaddya hoping? All eyes on you? All guys to like you? You're just being fake. Tsk,people in this particular group are labelled by even their own friends as 'attention-seeker' and I really pity them. I'd disown them if they are ever my friend. Lol.

Ok ciao.

Irritated,annoyed & depressed.

2012-01-19T11:24:00.001+08:00

Cinta kau dan aku,
Takkan mungkin bersatu.
Mungkin di saat ini,
Di dunia ini.
Mungkin kita bersama,
Nanti di atas sana.

Currently in the MRT right now heading to work. I'm also human,I need my mornings and evenings and even afternoon. 29 hours per week,116 hours per month x $6 = $696. My father's working hours are shorter than mine,and he earns more.

If only you ain't gay. IF only.

2012-01-18T16:28:00.001+08:00

What if...just,what if one day,I fell in love with a gay?
The one particular gay who always make my heart pulpitate so quickly,yes him.

2012-01-12T02:42:00.000+08:00

Hunny,don't you think you're heading the wrong way?

Big day

2012-01-08T23:31:00.000+08:00

Ever wanna know how guys can differ oh so much?!

See this.The difference between gentlemen and irritating-annoying ;)

Ming Kwang's:

Infamous Aqid Rezza & Mohamed Yazid's:

They're different,right? Toldcha!

Results are out tomorrow.Gonna have my last lunch in Khatib with my girls.Sigh,how fast time flies.It's four years already....Goodbye Orchid Park Secondary School.Though not all memories I had there were pleasant,I am still blessed to have met many teachers,friends,juniors,girlfriends and siblings-like people who have guided me through these strenuous 4 years of hell.Secondary school's life is indeed unforgettable.

Told Hooi Wen I'm resigning already.I am so freaking happy! I smiled to the customers too much just now that my mouth cramped.Bodoh sial.

Now awaiting my life and death situation.

Uncomfortable

2012-01-05T02:31:00.000+08:00

I HATE LIFE

i'm only human.you can't expect me to not be bored with the same routine.you did not make me love it more,you make me detest and fear it even further.i'm ending it at the end of this month.goodbye,dream.

Results in 4 days' time.Langkawi trip in 15 days' time.Excited.

Nam Woo Hyun,I love you.

Happy 2012

2012-01-02T03:57:00.001+08:00

True to what SiJia mentioned on twitter,my blog song is really emotional.It's the newest christmas addition to the study music la bitch! Hahaha see la,after O's,then you forgot all about study music huh?!

HI SIJIA! IF YOU'RE SEEING THIS,LEMME TELL YOU THAT YOU'RE A

DUMB BLONDE.

I miss my old friends and my cliques.Its not that I hate my current acquaintance with the boys,I love them like my very own older brothers.But I miss having those gossip sessions and all.And those times where we'd sit in the canteen and just plain talk.Or when we'd walk to the bus stop from school.Go on outings together.Things change.I did changed,in many aspects.My old friends may not even recognise the new me.Like how Fitri couldn't recognise me when I called out his name,until I had to say my name to him.It's a disappointment because we knew each other before.

Moving on,I spent my New Year watching fireworks with my family before walking from somewhere within the area of NTUC building to MBS and then to Marina Square alone.There were many Abang Lahs and drunkards.I was so scared that I got on phone with Nazihah and told her to not put down the phone until I reach her! Two mats thought I was faking the call because they said,"Alaaa nampak sah fake sia takde lampu kat phone" (it's obviously fake cos the phone's backlight is off).Hel-lo,you don't have iPhone is it? The backlight switches OFF when you're on call.So I met Nazihah,Aqid,Yazid,Anis and Fina.And the day ended.

GOODNIGHT.
Having my off day tomorrow.Yips!

Takkan mungkin.

2011-12-31T04:46:00.000+08:00

Unrequited Love.

Barely living for 16 years on this earth,and I'm already beginning to question such 'world's wonder'.So this kind of love is the type where one loves another to death,and is willing to love him/her,without having it returned nor acknowledge nor known.People say it's the most painful thing to ever happen to oneself - loving without consent.

Just like how you would love Allah without consent,only that that is not painful and is actually a bliss(more like paradise).Just like how you would love your family,no matter how many squabbles you had with them.Just like how you love your friends,no matter how they lie or backstab or betray you.

YOU,yes I'm talking to you.If you're ever stuck in an unrequited love,hunny,it's time for you to let go.There's still the world for you to venture out there.Earth is not a small place,but it is not a big place either.It depends on how you deal with the surroundings and people.Within Earth,you can find,perhaps a requited love from a person who you never knew existed before.And that person could be someone right under your nose all along.

Why bother with someone who doesn't give a damn to you? Why change yourself and break religion's rule just to impress that one person,who could possibly wouldn't even bat an eyelash to you? Why abandon your studies and family,just to pursue something that you're unsure of,especially at this age?

There'll at least be someone who cares and loves you for who you are.

Don't just cry and stand by as you watch someone you like,loving someone else.Tell yourself "This is a boring chapter of my life.Let's move on to the next one",flip your life around and watch the tables turn.

Remember to always return to your family and Allah at the end of the day.

Not a primadonna

2011-12-28T22:40:00.000+08:00

Ever wanna see how I look every night after showering? Or,in simple,how my computer painstakingly faces me every night?

HERE YOU GO.
I have some pimples for you to spot,by the way.Happy spot-the-pimple!

Heehee showing off my infamous Kim Bum poster.

I'm bloody pissed off by my oily hair and my pimples that nothing is going right today!!!!!

MY BOO

2011-12-25T21:20:00.002+08:00

Sigh,it's confirmed.I'm going on a vacation this coming CNY to.........Langkawi.

*awkward silence*

*cricket sounds*

DAD YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO ME!!!! ARGHHHH!

Firstly,I said I want a vacation to Jakarta.You agreed,and said we could visit Kak Na's new house there.Okay.Then,everything was planned.But it got cancelled because Kak Na's in-laws from Germany are coming over to visit her the whole month.You said we could go to Tangkoban Prahu(or whatever it is,that cold place with the volcano).Fine,I acceded.Then now you change to Langkawi?! FFFUUUU---

Sigh,anything la Dad.Just pray hard 24/7 that I can get my leave -.-

Seriously sial.I think I got the thang for chinese guys ;)

Chillax pill? Gimme one!

2011-12-22T02:23:00.000+08:00

AYE AYE!

Seriously,I look different with my black ear stud.I should wear them from now on.Lovely.

(no make-up,no instagram,no edit)

Who's that gurl~~~~lalalalala~~~ Then,everybody's starry eyed~~~
Hunny,fuck what people think of me.I know it's a lil conceited of me to post photos of myself everytime.I like how the pictures turn out,anyways.Ok la,sorry for being sucha vainpot but everyone knows I'm a camwhore and a mirror whore.You can't blame me! My mom is a camwhore,too.Look at her fb and you'll be enlightened.It runs in the genes y'know.

Ok ok,one more photo.

Who's that gurl~~~~~lalalalalalala~~~~
Hhahahah that song always comes to mind whenever I took pictures of myself,as usual *rolls eyes*

OK MY PERSONAL RANT.*SKIP THIS*
I fucking hate sales period la.The customers all like strode into the shop like they own it,mess up our clothes arrangement,drop the clothes on the floor and did not pick up,invade the fitting room and left without buying even though they tried on like 4-6 pieces and treat my colleagues and I like their servants,asking us to take bigger/smaller sizes even though we had like 1001 things on hand to accomplish.Eh c'mon la.I know customers are always right but please,we are servants to the shop,NOT TO YOU PEOPLE.And please,don't act like one rich biggie and demanding faster manpower from us with your sighs and 'tsk-s'.You are buying from SALES leh,40-50% off,not regular priced items! Buy cheap yet quality stuff,yet still wanna complain.Not that I don't value the customers but I absolutely hate their attitude.I said like a million 'sorry' and 'excuse me' to them cos I wanna shelf in the hanged clothes back,they don't scram outta my way,they got hit by the hangers and showed me angry faces.Doesn't that makes your blood boil?! I'm tryna be a super patient and respectful person but damn,this is going too far.
I pity my colleagues the most.
OK *CONTINUE READING FROM THIS PARAGRAPH ONWARDS*

Heehehee so Amalina and Atiqa gave me a surprise by visiting my workplace! And they came exactly on time for my break,somemore! Hahahah! I bought Yami Yogurt,like finally.Went to LJS and saw SiJia and Ferline,too~ Omg,are we fated or what?! Soul sisters forever,baby.

I lent Dad $10 cos he left his wallet at idkwhere.So I requested a simple interest of 300% from him as a repayment of Dad,which is to be cleared next month.I get $30 lor.Thanks,Dad! Schemer me.Actually he didn't approve of it,but I know he'll give it to me anyways.I'm his fav daughter,you see.Love you Dad <3

It's really a turn off to see malay guys dressing poorly because they will actually look more attractive if they are better dressed.Y'know,like how the sophisticated kind of chinese guys dress up...with their nude-coloured bermudas,brown slip-ins,shades,spikey hair and their button-down shirt...omg,can melt! Lol.I'm very much attracted to chinese guys hahahahah.But some mats can really dress well,by the way.SOME only.Mostly mats are good-looking,even though in home clothing.

CAN I GET A NERD BOYFRIEND?! THEN I MAKE HIM OVER.COS Y'KNOW WHAT? IN ONE OF THE BOOKS I READ,BY SO-SO(i forgot,lol) WILLIAMS,NERDS ARE ACTUALLY ONE OF THE HIDDEN,BEST-LOOKING PEOPLE AROUND.

Another hell day tomorrow.I'd better get some rest now.Still lethargic from just now.

p/s: hunny baby,you don't want me anymore.that's one of the 1001 reasons i have to hate on you.you don't want me anymore.you don't want me anymore.you don't want me anymore.you don't want me anymore.you don't want me anymore.yoouuuuuu don'ttt waaannnttt mmmeeee aannnnyyymmmooorrreeeeeeee.meh~ hehehehe~

A time to ponder

2011-12-16T21:40:00.000+08:00

Awwww,I can cry listening to this song.Actually it was mom who started singing this song then I got hooked! Hehehehe~

Cinta kau dan aku takkan mungkin bersatu untuk saat ini di dunia ini,

Mungkin kita bersama nanti di atas sana.

Biarku setia menjaga cinta kita selamanya.

Tapi cinta bukan milik kita,

Semua harus berakhir.

OK jiwang mode: on.

I wanna buy a denim highwaist pants :( But it's not available anywhere except for blogshops and I don't really wanna risk being scammed again.Sis said to wait for DP to sell,around January or February.But I wanna wear it during countdown!!!! FUCK.

Haiyo.Anybody got any idea where it is sold and how much? Hhhmmm...I don't really wanna wear shorts anymore.I'm beginning to be more woman-like.Heh! Talk only.I'll push myself ok!

Haish need to wake up early tomorrow for work...goodnight.

Day out.

2011-12-16T14:01:00.000+08:00

So as promised,I had to treat my 'beloved' best friends-cum-brothers,Yazid and Aqid,as well as,Amira,for her birthday,ice cream at cold stone creamery.Feena tagged along,too.It was my first time seeing her but I think she's really pretty and nice.The ice cream was fantastic and I had banana caramel.I tasted the ice cream the rest chose and I think mine was the best cos got bananassssss! Weeee~

Watched a movie afterwards but Amira couldn't follow cos she had some sort of a curfew.New Year's Eve was quite okay,although it's boring.Yazid was being such an ass beside me,always squirming in his seat and taking away my pullover.That bitch! Oh yes,and as usual,I got bullied,again,by the YaQid duo the whole day! THIS BULLYING NEVER ENDS.

We rushed for the last train from Marina Bay.The mrt service was such a fucked up faggot yesterday.The train we took terminated at Yishun.So me and Feena thought we had to cab home.But it turns out there was another train to Jurong East.LOL and we were jumping around (with many people staring at us),delighted that we need not waste money on cab! On the train,we bitched about some of my juniors from orchid park.She also said she cannot tahan the YaQid duo.Typical girls,hehe! We must go out together again hor~

This pantat Nur Atiqa Bte Abdul Razak cancelled our movie date today! That bitch! Haiyo! Hehehehe but I still lurbbes her,this minah.

AND FUCK LIFE,I'm transferred to Plaza Singapura for tomorrow.Does DP hate me or what?!

Everybody's starry eyed.

2011-12-14T00:10:00.001+08:00

YOU.ME.SEX.NOW.
NOW!

Hahha I can't wait to quickly grow up and get married because I want to know of the thesis made by my parents that a marriage is difficult,is true or not.I CAN'T WAIT! Girl,despo or what!

Second day of work down.Next shift on Thursday.Sigh.Quite tiring hor retails? I need to be on my feet all the time and welcome the customers,arrange the clothes,dressing room duties,check for sizes,punch card,sensor tagging and housekeeping duties at the end of the night.And somemore right,some customers got sweaty armpit so people on dressing room duties quite unlucky because need to hang the damp clothes back to their hangers and onto the shelves.

Okay la.I'm going to FOX tomorrow to buy my hoodie.Yessss!

Fuck,I don't even know them already.They've changed,totally.
What the hell just happened?

A first to everything

2011-12-12T22:52:00.000+08:00

HI BEEBEE.
My boyfriend,Nam Woo Hyun,is always keeping me up late.He's too damn cute to reject,so I burnt midnight oil for him and him only.

Work today was alright,I guess.I especially love Syaza,cos she's really cute and we've already started to joke around.But she won't be working until Friday :'( Yet,I have night shift tomorrow...I like Mavis,too,and Shanti,Lee Han(?) and Dani.They're like so cool.I learnt like tons of things in a short span of time.It was pressurising but that's life.Just now was the most fun shift ever,with only Shanti and Syaza.Love these two gorgeous!

I went for lunch alone,'cos Syaza and Mavis got an hour lunch earlier than me -.-
Went to BK,and saw many mats there.LOL.Marina Square is a mat infested place but baby,me gusta.

Tiring first day.Shift from 5pm tomorrow.I love work.

A new experience.

2011-12-10T01:19:00.000+08:00

I don't know my current state of mind right now.I want to cry,but I know it's pointless.I'm not getting back the time I've wasted.I want to scream nuts,but it's the dead night and everyone's fast asleep.I just...I just wanna break down and find a solution to ease over this pain.

So what is this feeling? No,I don't need to fart.

Weee! Heheh starting work on Monday,baby! ;D So eggcited.
I was such a silly lady just now during the signing of letter of appointment at winsland house.Together with like another 10 people recruited,Zarinah brief us on our job and etc.And we were told to fill up this form.I didn't know whether to put islam or muslim as my religion so I asked his hot mat beside me.The whole room heard my question,though,as the atmosphere was as such that one could hear a pin drop.The malays were laughing at me,including the mat and Zarinah -.-

I wanted to work at TopShop at marina square or even knightsbridge,NOT DP!!!

Boyfrienddddd

2011-12-09T13:24:00.001+08:00

Awwww baby I handsomenye!!!!
I love this giant baby.

TRANSFERRED!

2011-12-08T22:05:00.001+08:00

ZARINAH CALLED ME JUST NOW AND SAID THAT I'M TRANSFERRED TO DOROTHY PERKIN'S AT MARINA SQUARE COS KNIGHTSBRIDGE TOPSHOP NO VACANCY.

Damnnn I just walked past knightsbridge just now and that place was AMAZING.Fuck.Regretted hating it yesterday.Still,I want to work at TopShop laaaa! Fucgggg..I love Zarinah,though.She's sucha sweet lady.And she's super gorgeous please.

Town-ed the whole day with Atiqa and Irdina.Love them bitches <3

2011-12-08T00:26:00.000+08:00

I GOT A JOB AT TOPSHOP @ KNIGHTSBRIDGE.
Damnnnn I should have chosen Marina Square la!!!! FUCKERRRR.

Starting work next Monday,signing paper of agreement on Friday.
Wish me luck,baby.

Holiday Spirit.

2011-12-06T16:01:00.001+08:00

I badly wanna go Genting Highlands :(
But most probably,Dad would decide Langkawi for our vacation,AGAIN,which we'd go on CNY next year.However,if we are to go for our vacation during march holidays,we'll go Jakarta.

Shall I try going Genting alone? Or try asking Nazihah along? Hhhmmm...

Life stories.

2011-12-06T08:23:00.001+08:00

SHUT THE FUCK UP.
YOU DON'T KNOW HOW IT FEELS LIKE TO BE ME.
YOU HAVE NO IDEA.
ABSOLUTE NO IDEA HOW IT'S LIKE.

Troublemaker

2011-12-05T14:24:00.000+08:00

It feels great to have completed a task!

I'm amazed at my own rhymings as well. *boast* Heheheheh!

Ok bb bby.

All my friends belongs in the green zone!!!!!!

I need someone in the pink+orange zone T.T *lonely*

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY!

2011-12-02T23:28:00.000+08:00

So it was my birthday on 30 November,like around 2 days ago?
And guess what? I had fun!

When I woke up at 5am in the morning,I received birthday messages and missed calls at midnight.Except for Atiqa,who sent it to me on the exact time I was born 12.40am.Naw I love Atiqa ;)
Went to lunch *can't mention with who* but I love her so so so much!

Thank you to people who wished me on facebook,twitter,phone messages <3
And also to my beloved senior,Hui Jia,who dedicated a post to me.I fucking love her!
And to my beloved girls,SiJia,Azizah and Irdina,who sacrificed their time to whatsapp me at midnight even though they were in Beijing...Awwww!
You guys are the love!

So I have another birthday present,the most unexpected and beloved out of all.(still love my girls more!)

Hehehehe they kept to their words! A huge huge huge huge thank you and *muacks* to Aqid,Fayyad,Rasul and Yazid! No,actually Fayyad was like "Eh we dedicate to you ley! Then no 'thank you'?" while Aqid and Yazid were like "That's gonna be your new favourite song!" Yea yea right.

I can safely claim that 2011 is the best year ever.
Sometimes,I fail at realising how many people around me actually do acknowledge my existence.It's just my ignorance....

*back to cracking my brain*

DEPRESSED.

2011-11-29T16:24:00.000+08:00

YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE....MY ONLY SUNSHINE...
YOU MAKE ME HAPPY....WHEN SKIES ARE GREY...

I was born on 30 November 1995,at 0040hours,weighing 2.7kg.
Tomorrow's my birthday...and I fucking got scammed today! $15 down the drain.Major fucker.Duit tak halal tu,sial puki bodohnye betina.Kau yang dapat dosa,kafirun betul.Pergi makan babi kau and tunggu neraka bukak pintunye untuk kau ok.Bodoh.

Pissed off.So dishonest.

There's always gonna be another mountain.

2011-11-26T21:06:00.001+08:00

LOLOLOLOLLLLLL HEAR THIS OUT!
So yesterday,after a lepak session with "selenge bin bacin(s)" at NP's Mcdonald's,I went home at around 11pm? (fyi,there was never a time where we'd reach home before 10pm.The latest we got home was at midnight..)
At 11.20 pm,I reached Admiralty.My neighbourhood is a damn lively place so even after 10pm,when the lights at the badminton court automatically switches off,there'd still be some mats playing sepak takraw or plain lepak in the dim,and even skaters.Coincidentally yesterday,there were still people around the court.So I was walking across the court when one mat said to his friend,"Eh siape budak tu ah? Tak pernah nampak".And his friend replied,"Hot kan?" OMFGGGGGG.

Damn I'm having breakouts on my cheeks and forehead area...FUCK LIFEEEEEE.
I want to go to Seoul Gardens pleaseeeeeeeeeeee.

"SINGLES ARE HAPPY PEOPLE"

they'd say...

but I'm attached to Nam Woo Hyun,that's the problem.

All my life,I pray for someone like you.

2011-11-24T23:17:00.000+08:00

I totally melted at this! OMG so nice please.Heee so proud to have friends like them.I'm like a proud mother watching her sons achieve fame and successes.And I told them beforehand that I was totally smitten for One In A Million and see their dumbass replies :

SEE I'm a good friend RIGHT?! This two bitches just won't admit.Kay brb lemme go cry for a while.*sobs*

And yup,during prom,I watched their performance intensely.I was being a good audience.And Cikgu Maslin even whatsapp-ed me : "Concentrate nampak!" OMG hahhaha I love Cikgu Maslin please!

Nah I just hope these three monkeys do well in their studies first then pursue their dream of being famous.

All the best,ASSIDUOUS!

p.s. go cover 'All My Life' cos Aqid can sing it very very nice.

KAY DONE.That's all for today.Bye see you babies tomorrow.

Set fire to the rain

2011-11-24T00:24:00.001+08:00

I let it fall,my heart..
and as it fell,you rose to save me...

Adoi,orang sibuk naikkan jumlah duit dalam bank,aku pulak sibuk naikkan berat badan.Sial ah!

Erm erm erm....I think it's cool when guys speak in foreign languages.For me,I wanna learn how to speak Thai. Like cool like that right? Omg after O's,my english is getting from worst to cannot-make-it.Ah whatever la.I'm a Singaporean,not British citizen or American.OK I wanna learn how to speak Thai.

I asked my aunt,what if I couldn't get into poly and got into ITE instead,would she be ashamed? And she said he most touching words ever : "These days,ITE have more achievements than Poly,and no,I won't be ashamed".I asked the same question to my mom and she said,"Why are you so pessimistic? I'm very sure you'll pass your O's.The least you'd get is 17 points." My cousin,on the other hand,assured me that I'll do my very best because she saw me,several times,sleeping with books scattered on my bed.I'm touched by encouragements from people around me.Even if I could only qualify for ITE,I would work hard and go to Poly next.Because why,#mybestisgoodenough.Thank you deekosh for the inspiring video ;D

*muacksmuacks*

Back at one

2011-11-22T21:31:00.000+08:00

SUPER CUTE NAM WOO HYUN <3

So I had a great prom yesterday.Took alot of pictures.And joked alot with the malay gang! Haziq,Yusri and Ian were so funny.Hidayat and his never-ending trips to the toilet with Ahmad.

Then after prom,ditched my girlfriends off and went to lepak with Nazihah,Aqid and Yazid. outside marina square.We though of eating at McDonald's but the outlet is not 24/7 and it was closed.So we had McDelivery,which reminds me,they have yet to pay me back.Haiyo! Gonna be a loanshark in a few minutes' time.LOL these guys made me realise something : With a guitar and a laptop,you can make the world go around.They karaoke-d -.- After all our noise pollution,we eventually slept on the cold floors and awoke at 6+am to catch the mrt home.

AND CAN U SMILE

2011-11-21T00:05:00.000+08:00

People.I have a boyfriend.We're getting married soon.His name is Nam Woo Hyun.

HAHAH please la,I'm wishing for that day to come.

I LURBBES MY NAMTREE <3

I need to meet you,baby.ASAP.

See how fucking adorable MY namtree is?!

Dear baby,

I love you.And I think you're cute.And gorgeous.Your abs,especially *swoons*.

You know,although we've never met and most probably,would never ever,I still want to express my deespest gratitude to you.You alluring husky voice gave me comfort while I was on a slump.You were there,when everyone else weren't.You did not hurt my feelings,while others around me,who do know me,did.Call me fanatic or crazily obssessed kpop fan.I'm not.I'm just a fucking fanslave to Nam Woo Hyun,and him only.

KINDA NEW.

2011-11-20T00:01:00.000+08:00

I have a confession,
No,it's not an obsession.
The most perfect of mankind creation,
I'm in love with a man of perfection.

He gave me a sense of attraction,
All my feelings for him is not a fiction.
He turned himself into my addiction,
Any part of him I dislike? Not even a fraction.

I'm in love with.....a tree,a star,namtree,namstar,Nam Woo Hyun.

PERIOD.

Life's a pompom!

2011-11-16T21:20:00.001+08:00

IMMA BABI GURLXZ IN A BABI WORLD~~~
LIFE IN PLASTIC,ITZ FANTASTIX!

She lives her life like it's a party and she's on the list

She looks at me like I'm a trend and she's so over it

I think her ever present frown is a little troubling

She thinks I'm psycho 'cos I like to rhyme her name with things

But sophistication isn't what you wear or who you know

Or pushing people down to get where you wanna go

Oh,they didn't teach you in that in school,so it's up to me

But no amount of vintage dresses gives you dignity.

Heard that from Swift,bitch?

You suck.

Heheheh.So I heard from someone that I don't look local and that I'm prettaye.Awww dude! You're making me shy~~~ *proud for a minute* One minute only,not more.

Kay.So a guy friend of my sister called her up and asked why I'm not messaging him anymore.Uh-huh.You serious dude?! Umm even my friends know that I'm not the type to text first? So,you first,or we remain silent..

FUTURE PLANS :

I wanna get married before age 27.I want to eat,without a care in this world,junk food with my husband while watching tv and be total couch potatoes.I won't let him go on a diet because men are made to eat and not starve.I wanna work in a bank or hotel administration and earn a 4 figure salary.I wanna own a pet rabbit.I want my parents and my fav aunt and uncle to live comfortably.I want to buy my siblings whatever they want.Especially my youngest brother.In 11 years time,all of these will happen.Insya'allah.

NAMSTAR NAMTREE,MY BABY.

2011-11-14T23:02:00.001+08:00

Huhuhuhuh.
I no-no how to do mcq paper lol. Who the fuck cares cos I already screwed my paper 2 and 3,and blasted it with a gluegun so it sticks.

Bio paper 1 tomorrow.
I love you Ms Carole Wong. No matter how I cursed and swore to Bio before,I can't deny I'll miss the strenuous hardcore after-school remedials which were held daily...and I'll miss all those Bio terms she hammered into my memory.

O Level's ending tomorrow.
To be honest,although I dread examinations,I'll definitely miss studying the whole night before.

Goodbye secondary school life.

Brief update.

2011-11-11T23:48:00.001+08:00

BABY.I NEED NO BOY NOR LOVE.I JUST NEED MONEY TO GO SHOPPING AND BUY NICE SHOES AND CLOTHES.GO GET HAIR EXTENSIONS.GO BUY GOOD FOOD.GO BUY POLAROID.GO BUY BASKIN ROBBINS.GO DYE MY HAIR.

ARRGGHHH.

So,I have these favourite bitches.LOL.

Reading their messages...brought back alot of memories.These are the friends that I hate yet love at the same time cos all 3 of them have the same interest : to irritate and to hurt my feelings -.-

Don't believe me? Read on.

Meet Yazid.He's a bitch.He's my best friend.

I hate him and he hates me too.We are never on the same term.Always arguing.

This is Azizah.She,really,only can count on her smart brains and pretty features.

But she has no absolute respect in her! But that's why I lurbbes her cos she's real and NOT fake.

And she's my bestest bitching buddy evah!

Erm this is..a group chat on whatsapp.

See? These two bimbos always make my day cos they're very funny.

Although they like to criticise me alot,I always end up laughing it off.

p.s.they always spam the convo.esp Aqid.

SEE? I DON'T FUCKING NEED BOYFRIENDS NOR BOYS COS I HAVE AWESOME FRIENDS AROUND ME.

i also love atiqa,sijia,nazihah,ezaidah,minghui and amalina.

Goodbye baby goodbye.

2011-11-09T01:07:00.000+08:00

Nope.Look baby,even if I'm not pretty to you,I know I'm pretty to me.

PIGRUNTSPIGRUNTS

2011-11-06T23:13:00.000+08:00

'cos nobody has ever healed hurt feelings in mere seconds.

I have come to realise,I'm just not your type.Heh.So like what I told my other friends,I'm over liking you.

Stay happy and have a blessed life.

May we cross path again in the future.

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you,

Been here all along,why can't you see?

You belong with me.

"Taylor Swift sure do understand my feelings."

Dear SiJia,you're one rigid girl so I know you'll make through this.I love you.

Hogged

2011-11-05T10:04:00.002+08:00

This guy is amazing. Jack Vidgen.

I bet she's beautiful,that girl he talks about.
And she's got everything,that I have to live without.
He says he's so in love,he's finally got it right.
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night.
- Taylor Swift.

Eat no study

2011-10-29T19:13:00.001+08:00

Stayed at my aunt's house and she went out for karaoke session with uncle.
Home alone,and as usual,Safirah's itchy hands and hungry mind searched through the cupboard.
FUCK BITCH I MADE BUTTER PASTA AND IT TASTES GREAT ALTHOUGH IT LOOKS UNAPPETIZING BUT I'M EATING IT ANYWAY.
So mum,I can get married already huh?!

gotta catch'em all

2011-10-29T01:09:00.000+08:00

Two days ago was Amalina's 16th Birthday.And I'm fucking not pleased I couldn't get her anything except for a simple message due to O levels.Singapore Government,seriously? Our lives are destroyed,battered and sun-dried,for this supposed 6-year preparation examinations cramped into 4 years.
Anyways,Happy Belated Birthday Bitch! <3

And today is Atiqa's dad,Abdul Razak's,birthday! HAHAHAH.She told me that.

So English and Maths papers down.Nothing much to comment only that I could do well for both.
I've been listening to Veronica Ballestrini on Youtube.Damn,she's hot and talented! Gotta love her.

"What do you say to someone,who means the world to you.

What do you say to the right one,which words do you choose."

Nawwwww!

2011-10-29T00:43:00.001+08:00

Happy 51st Birthday,Father.
Yesterday,28 October was your 51st year.
Although I know that you'd probably never see this,I can't say it to you face to face cos we are more to bestfriends rather than father and daughter,so it's gonna be more awkward.But,you must never doubt my unwavering love for you.Sometimes,I do admit raising my voice at you and talking back.But,just like any other adolescents,I'm no different.I'm changing,you see.Someday,you're gonna hand me over to another man.And when that day comes,I'm sure you'll realise that whatever moral knowledge you've instilled in me through your endless naggings and never-ending stories are not in vain.

Blogshopping.

2011-10-26T21:39:00.001+08:00

My stuff are all coming! Yay.
$127 worth of goods,come to mama.
I need more moneh to blogshop again once O's ends.

2011-10-25T21:52:00.001+08:00

At this point of life,when everything's failing me,and everyone's hurting me,plus the stress and pressure from examinations,I can do nothing.
I'm someone whom girls hate for being
myself and whom guys hate for being fugly.
I'm someone whom is always compared to her beautiful and smart close friend.
I'm a girl with no bestfriends.
I'm a girl who was taught by my friends that being ugly is the most dreadful sin I've ever committed.
I'm a girl whom is always mistaken for a guy due to my looks.
I'm a girl.
And the world is against me.

Allah,do you still love me?
I'm lonely and I'm scared.

2011-10-25T14:07:00.001+08:00

The only person whom I thought would love me,left me.
Just beause I'm ugly,nobody wanna love me.
I have all imperfections so nobody loves me.

He must be so happy right now.

I may be bad but I am perfectly good at it.

2011-10-23T18:18:00.001+08:00

Sex in the air,I don't care I love the smell of it.
So hey.English paper tomorrow.
Slept from 11 yesterday,to 4pm just now.I'm so tired and I have yet to revise English.Sigh.

Quarrelled with Mum,and I'm gonna stay at Aunt's house until O's end.Or maybe,permenantly.I broke down in front of Yazid and Nazihah yesterday after receiving her phonecall.They were laughing at me -.- But seriously,your child is sitting for her O's and you're there venting your anger away just so that this situation appeals to you and you win the argument.Damn.

And sooooo...Goodluck to me.

Despite tomorrow being my final exam,I still can't get over the thought of you and how you stole my breath away the first time we met

Graduated.

2011-10-20T22:47:00.001+08:00

Awesome lepak day yesterday at the canteen with Nazihah,Yazid and Aqid.Actually Atiqa was with us but she don't wanna join in! Finally graduated.

Screwed O level's science practicals just now 'cos I don't know how to do.FUCK.

Bestfriend.

2011-10-16T19:52:00.001+08:00

I know I keep updating blog like 4 times in a day,exaggeration but hey!
I...was touched.
SiJia uploaded a photo for me...I'll post a verrrry long post on all my friends soon.To appreciate for what they have done over the years,before I embark on my next journey of life.

SiJia composed this for me.I feel like crying.Because she major suck and hate rhyming words,but she did this.
Sigh,it's really heartening to know some who really put in effort to please people even if what they're doing is not their palate...but the effort they put in,priceless.

p.s. Azizah,if you're reading this,I found your blog,bitch! Dalam senyap eh kau! Da diam!!!!!

Diss diss dissssssssszzzzzz....

2011-10-16T14:12:00.001+08:00

Whoever uses Instagram,and checks the popular segment regularly,would definitely have come across this guy.He had came up several times there for getting many likes for his photos.Yes,it's a he not a she,though he look feminine.
Super cute sial.See his chubby cheeks!
Swoons and hyperventilate.

I don't want you.

2011-10-15T16:27:00.001+08:00

Atiqa,kawan kau lawa eh? Heeheeh!
I can't study.

Jack was nimble,Jack,he was quick.

2011-10-14T23:56:00.001+08:00

This is why I love Azizah,she's a bitchy pal <3

Kan aku da cakap,I'm recently obsessed with toilets.Toilets have some of the best lighting for a photo.Especially with the magic of Instagram.....waduh.A humble girl can become a vainpot.

Been studying and analysing notes.

With Nazihah,Atiqa and Sheron...day in and day out.

Ciao.O Level's gonna be over soon.

A better tomorrow.

2011-10-09T16:00:00.001+08:00

Mummy they call me names,they wouldn't lemme play.

'Tis girl,who used to only have less than 5 friends back in school.Fuck you old non-friends,thank you for the pain 'cos it made me raise my game.I'm not obese anymore.In fact,I'm thinner than most of you.This teaches you,never to look down on fat people nor call them names.Karma got back to you.
Oh no! What happened to you? Chu look lika fat dugong! Who's laughing now?

AND CAN YOU IMAGINE? It's 3:48pm and I have yet to shower.All these studying are taking a toll on me.I'm feeling the pangs of fatigue.Oh oh,and I tried taking pictures in the TOILET,'inspired' by one of my friends in fb.Hahahahh! So funny.And it's disgusting.There are gardens to take pictures on,why the toilet? That's what Dad said. Momma said I look like a slut :)

THIS MINAHS' LIPS-PUCKERING POSE IS GROTESQUE.EW.
My picture's isn't disgusting,it's beeyootifoot! Hahahah.
Ignore the lips and look at my eyes.They're big and nice~~~ nah nah,don't be jealous of my eyes.

That's how we roll.

2011-10-03T20:41:00.000+08:00

Dear fellow girls(esp some girls),

Just so you know that love doesn't exist.So stop spouting it anyhow,it's sickening.

Before you start 'loving' people from opposite gender,have you ever thought of loving your God?

People from your opposite gender right now,they're still boys,not yet men.They still love their freedom and enjoy their lives.A real man would not disrespect women.

How to differentiate men and boys? Simple : Men will not make dirty jokes,but boys do.Men do not look at the physical appeal of women,like their sexiness or hotness,but boys do.

Same for the barrier between girls and women.Girls enjoy listening to dirty jokes,but not women.Girls are very sensitive of how they appear to boys,but women strut her own stuff like nobody's business.

And that is why you should go study first,then find a man in the future,not a boy.

Seriously,if he's a boy,he's not ready yet.

And,yea,go study first.

With love.

pssst but it's perfectly okay to have a massive crush on someone.

you are at that age to feel so,anyway.

2011-10-03T01:09:00.001+08:00

GONNA NEED EVERY BIT OF MY STRENGTH AND ENDURANCE.
1 more month,and all I've been tormented for,for the past 10 years,would end.And,insya'allah,comes a relatively easier path for me,as the future studies would not require anymore Comb Humans,Bio or Comb Science!

I'll await that day.

2011-10-02T17:42:00.001+08:00

HILARIOUS GOBSTOPPERS!
sad that it'd be the last time ever to study together with them until wee morning.
I wish my girlfriends are as laidback as them,and that their parents allow for late-night studying.Because my brain works best at night,thus making studying more effective.HAIYO.

Post Prelims.

2011-09-30T19:11:00.001+08:00

So I passed 5 and failed 2.I failed Bio by two marks.Damn wasted! Haiyo.

I laughed like a slut after receiving these whatsapp from the biggest bitch ever,Yazid.Sometimes,I wonder,just how can a man have women's bestest personality,which is 'KAYPOH'.He kept on making fun of his mother!

PRELIM FEVER

2011-09-28T21:46:00.001+08:00

Baby.I can't spend time with you anymore.I found my true other half,one that is for my own happiness and good future.I'll have to change my lover.

Yours sincerely,
Girl-who-ditched-her-computer-for-studies.

I'm not ready for tomorrow.I know I'm set to cry.I'll end up crying anyhoo.Sigh.

Let's sleep.

"Kamu tidak berseorangan.Allah sentiasa di sisimu.Jika kamu tiada teman dan di tempat yang tidak dikenali,bawalah 2 perkara bersamamu : keyakinan dan cinta"
- Di bawah lindungan ka'abah.

Where could we be,when we used to be so free...

2011-09-26T15:24:00.000+08:00

Went to a berbecue chalet on my maternal side.
My mother's side is the faithful to religion type,while my father's side is more of badass,which I prefer.

I <3 THIS PICTURE COS I LOOK GORGEOUS :)

Tsktsk,Safirah....how to find a husband in the future?

SO I HAD FUN.
AND I DIDN'T STUDY FOR C.SCIENCE PAPER 1.
I've resigned to fate.Toldcha I'm not gonna study for Bio and C.Science for O's.

Have you realised?

2011-09-24T00:19:00.000+08:00

Weeeee! Today,I'm gonna post photos that I have yet got the chance to..or maybe,those that I can't post on facebook since walls have eyes and human have feelings.Some bitch might randomly attack me outta nowhere.Gah,grow up gal.

AIRPORT TRIP <3

WITH AMALINA,AQID AND YAZID.

She's a future smarty,Ustazah and a policewoman! Haha.

Doncha just love instagrams? I do!

Amalina went home and I was left with these two gobstoppers!

Well,they're my bestfriends.

Yazid wheeled Aqid into and out of the toilet -.-

Leticia poosing da terolly.

Sat on the bag stopper of the trolley,

and his balls cramped...FOR THE FIRST TIME IN HIS LIFE.

tsktsk.

Future Superstar(wtf!),with the voice of angels.

Future architect,with the lamest sense of humour.

Satu-satu expression bodoh dan stop it.

L.SELETAR WITH AMALINA <3

We didn't took pictures at L.Seletar 'cos it was kinda scary.

But I initiated the start of the photos at her void deck,while she was answering a call.

Minah tudung zaman sekarang! Ape ni?

Satu-satu mintak kene tempeleng and tendang ke Africa!

Stop it with the faces eh Amalina and Safirah.

I FORGOT WHERE WE WENT,SOMEWHERE AROUND BUGIS.

WITH NAZIHAH,YAZID,AQID & FAYYAD.

Goofing off together while Nazipork and Yazot had their personal date.

Sssshhh jangan tegur.Their newly-found bestfriend.

Nazihah said she was jambu in this! So typical.

Nazihah's a future chef and a potential model.

Fayyad is a future irritating-annoying-ridiculous guy,like now!

Went out with Nazihah and Yazid just now.I didn't want to,but Nazihah begged me.And I just decided to go.
But I waited for them to finish their movie first before we go for ice cream.Finally got my fix of natural ice cream to satiate my throat.Heeeheee,So fat.We heard the F1 cars racing through at Marina Square.DEAFENING PLEASE.Gosh.

Sooo....was yesterday 23/9/2011 my lucky day? Because many mats were staring at me while they walked to the bus stop after their friday prayers at Marsiling.One of them smiled to me while riding his motorcycle,looked back to his friend on another motorcycle and that friend smiled at me.Emmm.I'm shy! Then this mat with a tattoo stared at me in NP.Then Darwin told me on Twitter that Zuhairi said I look pretty without specs*hehe*.Then a mat,the Nazihah loudly criticised,sat beside me on the MRT.Another someone made my day.

Full with mats :) BYEBYE BABY GOODBYE.

What hip?

2011-09-22T02:20:00.000+08:00

The hype now is on Google+,huh? Everyone's talking about it.Oh shut up.Well,after the hot is over for Facebook,I'm not gonna join anymore social networking sites.It has been a long journey,Myspace,Friendster,Facebook and some other.It'll be quits,Facebook is the last.Hmmm I'll just keep on loving Twitter and Blogger,then! Blogger NEVER gets old.And I'm not a citizen of Tumblr.Haaaaa.

G'night.
p.s.The songs 'Ku Pinang kau Dengan Bismillah' and 'Padamu Aku Bersujud' touches my heart,deep.

When you need me most.

2011-09-21T23:32:00.000+08:00

11.11pm just passed.Ya Allah,I need your guidance.I'm confused,how do I keep my focus on studies when my other half of nonsense-laden part of brain tells me otherwise? Jane,Z&Ham,they're all gonna be a part of my memories.Make them good...good memories.

So I had Combined Science prac just now.After Bio SPA,everything just seemed so much more relaxed and chill.Biology is the suckiest..subject.Gah,I shall just learn to love it and live with it since making a wise decision should not lead to a life full of regrets.After the pracs,we had to be quarrantined(?) until 1.45pm,with handphones stripped off us.I studied Bio with Sheron and chatted with other lovelies,while fussing over the pimple on my chin.

Here's one of the funniest convo
Me : This pimple is bugging me non-stop!
SiJia : It's like Singapore,a little red dot.Hahah!
Manpreet : It's just a pimple,Saf.It will go away in 3-4 days!
Me : Manpreet,it's not JUST a pimple.It's a PIMP-le,and it is a big deal.
SiJia : It's not about the pimple going away in 3-4 days.The problem is,it's there NOW!
Manpreet : But all teenagers will have pimples.
SiJia : EH YOU DON'T HAVE! SO CLEAN! *points to Atiqa* YOU ALSO! *grumbles to herself* Let's not talk to all these people.

Hahahaha! I can't stop laughing remembering all those epic conversations with dear classmates.Sigh,we only have this much time left to spend together....

I went to watch Smurfs with Azizah the previous Tuesday.Hah,this time I was late.Azizah told me gossips,YET AGAIN,about him and her.Azizah is sucha bimbotic kaypoh CNN reporter! She practically knows all the in-house gossips.That's my fav junior,need to follow the senior,though I'm lacking nowadays. All I gotta say is,this girl should buzz off to other guys who would like her instead of bugging me 2nd fav junior who has absolutely no interest in her.Okay.And those guys bugging Azizah,especially F,should really mirror themselves first.Beauty and the Beast,nah that doesn't happen in real life,only fairytale.

So,I'm beginning to believe in destiny.I know that one day,there will be people,women and men,who would appreciate me for who I am,treasure me like a gem,care for me like a pearl and treat me with love.Time won't tell and if destiny to hasten up,I'll create my own happy ending.

Ciao.

Let's live life.

2011-09-20T15:45:00.001+08:00

Study study study mode on.

So I was WhatsApp-ing with my bitchiest pal,and he wrote something ridiculous! And I found it so funny.He was so sensitive and emotional that I told him that he was on his menstrual period!

2011-09-19T16:19:00.000+08:00

Got these from an app in my phone,which I screenshotted.

Listen,STORY OF MY LIFE.

Gonna have a movie date with Azizah tomorrow.Smurfs,it is.

2011-09-17T12:06:00.000+08:00

I KNOW YOU'RE TALKING BAD BEHIND MY BACK.
I KNOW YOU HATE ME.
AND YOU SHOULD REALLY STOP ROLLING YOUR EYES AT ME.IT'S RUDE.WEREN'T YOU TAUGHT RESPECT?

ATAS RESTU ALLAH,AKU TAKNAK LAGI BERGAUL DENGAN ORANG KAFIR. SATU-SATU PENTINGKAN KESENANGAN SENDIRI. MAKAN LAGI BANYAK KHINZIR,KAN PERANGAI DA SAME.

But you don't seem to care.

2011-09-12T23:42:00.000+08:00

And so today went well.Idgaf for SS,goodbye to it.Maths P2,I think there'll be some improvements in my grades as compared to MYE's,though I doubt I'll pass.Atleast an improvement is better than deprovement right.

So the Sec 4s in my school are already feeling the exam heat for O's,seeing that there are only 45 days left.Sigh. I'm leaving this school already...seems like only yesterday I first start schooling and meet friends...great memories.

But I can't wait to move on to Poly,so I have to work extra doubly hard to get into my desired course,which is Tourism and Hospitality Management....and I'm planning to focus on English,Math,Malay,POA and C.Humans.Aish,shouldn't have taken the Science stream! Waste of my time and brain cells.And I'm aiming for TP,where it's COP is 14.Gahhhh 14? So I can get a max of 16 points only.To hell with that.It was fishdamn 15 last year!

Oh,and I went to Yazid's open house with Azizah last Saturday.Azizah was LATE.Haha! It was very awkward at first,but we started loosening up.Half the time,I was gossiping with Azizah(we hate the same group of people!),the boys were playing games,Yazid's bro was watching a football match,Fayyad was in his own world,Aqid was singing and Yazid was MIA.And it was scary when Aqid sang 'Ariq' and 'WAW' because I was amazed at how good a singer he is,like srsly no joke.But Speech Day's one was the best.It was...somewhat more than spectacular.I guess he got sillier with time.
p.s.Yazid and his bro have got similar voices! HAHAHAHAHA! So funnaye! Can't stop laughing.

Back to me and Azizah.We were talking about the girls in our school and how cute the guys in our school are.She told me alot of secrets! And also of her paranormal encounter few years back.SCARY! I got goosebumps listening to her narrations.But I still love this girl,nonetheless,despite us always squabbling over who's more cute/pretty/sexy <3

Okay.I think I'll go now.

2011-09-09T22:09:00.000+08:00

Brown hair,brown-coloured iris.You have them? So what? Me,my dad and youngest brother,WE have them too.And we don't boast about having them.Why should we,and get compared to Orang Laut(that's what my dad said!)? Not that I'm mocking Orang Laut.Why should we,and be laughed at for having colour-mutated hair and iris? You know,having brown hair means that our hair is lacking of nutrients.I'm just irritated.Really,grow up.Blondes also don't boast about having yellow hair and albinos don't boast about having red-coloured iris.And here you are boasting.Tch.Kids these days,being proud of measly stuff.

Example of Orang Laut.See their hair?

I hate having brown hair,it brittles so easily and look dead & unhealthy.I envy black-haired people,their hair always look so healthy and alive.Sad thing,Muslims aren't allowed to dye their hair black.But my Dad loves it.He said it makes him feel Caucasian.Yea right Dad,you're 100% of Boyan descendant.Jangan nak berangan banyak.

A sky full of lighters.

2011-09-06T23:47:00.001+08:00

So...study group with Amalina and Atiqa failed.
I have no other rescurrection for my lazyness.Gosh,somebody call 911! I just can't fucking find the motivation.Maybe,after Bio tomorrow,I shall memorise one SS theme.

Please,Safirah.Prelims is the only chance to redeem yourself.

I saw him,T,again at Yishun.Ear piercings and all,ew.I really hate guys who pierces,smoke(whatever it is),drink alcohol and with tattoos all over their body.Really,what a turnoff.As a girl/lady/woman myself,I detest my own double ear piercings.Not proud of it because it's not cool...because I'm starting to repent as starters.I'm refraining from wearing shorts already.HAHAH.Well atleast it's better than nothing.

I'm loving this guy more and more.He's so adorable.And with da sweetest voice on earth that could melt me and bonkers me down.He's so cuuuuuuute.

And then,I swear I miss the nonsense I had with this bitch during band rehearsals.To think,many of my friends,be it malay or chinese,are jealous that I'm close to him.Gosh! I still remember when we accompanied each other to the toilet one evening during band camp.Oh-so-nostalgic.

Di Saat Aku Mencintaimu by Dadali,listen to the lyrics and feel the emotions running through the singer's unwavering voice.Strong enough to make an impact and make me cry.Boohoo.Seriously.

Let's hide from the world.

2011-09-05T18:58:00.000+08:00

The past few posts had been so negative.

It's okay,Safirah.It's not worthwhile trying to improve yourself just because of one person,when there are tens out there loving you for who you are.Gotta say thanks to SiJia and Amalina for texting/tweeting me encourages after they read the previous post.Needa stay by my line to never be brought down by words.

I've been listening to songs by Wali Band.As my friends know,I'm a hardcore fan for Indonesian pop songs! Hahaha,I know I'm like a bumpkin.But,what matters is I love what I'm doing.Malay-raced people who listens to Western songs,you are missing out something heartwarming while you're listening to all those illuminati & satan-laden crap.That's my point of view,and you don't have to be angry over that unless you yourself acknowledges my words of nonsense,of course.

HAVE TO STUDY.BYE.

Don't stand a chance.

2011-09-01T22:42:00.002+08:00

Seriously? Do you have to tell the whole population about that? So childish.

Here's an apology to you (idc whether you see this or not):

Dear you,

I am sorry for having caused inconvenience to you that day.

I didn't know it would impact you a lot.

I thought you wouldn't mind since we're friends.

Why are you making a big deal out of it?

I'm sorry for making you hate me more & more.

I won't do that again,and I won't appear in your sight anymore,if that's your wish : for me to disappear.

I thought we could be good friends,but I guess not.Because you thought I liked you.No,I don't.I only wanted to be friends.

I LOOKED TERRIBLE WITH PANDA EYES.

I'm just so tired of pleasing people.I'm always sacrificing myself and swallowing my priceless pride just to be funny and create laughters.It's so tiring.Really.I was fat,but due to peer pressure and bullies,I lost weight through one week of starvation and exercises.That one week was the worst moment of my life.I cried and cried to myself.I ate nothing,and kept to myself in the room.After that one week,I went through bulimia.What's that? It's bingeing on food,feel fat,and vomit out everything I ate.I could have died.DIED.

But just to not be called fat again,I endured.RIGHT NOW,I'm undergoing bulimia again.Fuck life.Y'all just want to see me die,right? Let me die.

It's okay for other girls to tie their hair in whatever ways they want,be it to the side or whatsoever.But for me,even if my ponytail slant for the minimal bit,guys would always tease me for attempting to act cute.

This is so unfair.You boys are not treating me like other girls.I am considered a 'male' to you all.Why? What did I do to receive this discrimination? Why me? There are other girls out there,more of those similar to species like you.Why aren't they called a 'male' but I am? Explain.Even though I said nothing doesn't mean I approve of what you said.Just because I did nothing,it doesn't mean I'm not breaking inside.My mum raised me up as a girl.It hurts alot to be in my situation.

I'M ALWAYS THE UGLY ONE.

I'M ALWAYS THE FAT ONE.

I'M ALWAYS THE STUPID ONE.

OTHER GIRLS,THEY'RE PERFECT.

BUT ME,I'M JUST EXCLUDED.

2011-08-28T00:54:00.000+08:00

HERE'S MY PHOTO SPAMMM!

So,I've just been destressing myself after Prelims and lotsa drama.Went to CWP bazaar.Mak you,banyaknye mamat handsome.'specially those selling kebab.Awh,I melted.And alotsa mats were like oggling at girls.WTF. No,I'm not jealous! Am I?

'Cos I think I'm ugly and nobody wants to love me(hah,apt snippet of the song, 'Ugly')

So me and mum,we bought lotsa food.Kay,not mum.But ME.

And we got unsatiable $10 worth of dendendendendengggg!!!!!!!!!! SO HAPPY.

And people,it's fucking not dengdeng.It's dendeng.Get that right.Irritating.

Then mum brought out her set of mooncakes.And I took one of 'em for own consumption.

In the house,there's one of my rules.Whatever I buy,nobody else can eat.Safirah eat for herself and only care for herself.She won't share anything,not a single morsel.Unless she's extremely kind and in the mood,then maybe you're in luck.

Then my sis came in to intervene my camwhoring session to show off her new wedges she bought.Kay...

Then got told off by mum for putting on weight yet still eating so much.

It's ohkay Safirah! You're not fat!

EVIDENCE OF MOONCAKE.

ONE PIECE LEFT....KYAAAA T.T

This is what I meant by 'muka down syndrome'! :B

It's okay,Safirah! Even if a messy room defines your messy personality,you're still loveable!

Aku tak percaya kau telah tiada.

2011-08-25T22:58:00.001+08:00

'Tis bitch wanna go Choquequirao with her future billionaire husband.

K,I'm just truly inspired and moved by the story of Peru,Machu Picchu,the town of Angleis(sth,dafck?) on the passage of english compre just now.Yea,I had advanced prelims just now.And I swear it's not a good start.I wrote 1 and a half pages of formal letter before realising that it should be a proposal,so I re-wrote the whole thing.The whole drama ends with the awesome me not being able to give a more-than-5-words ending for my compo.Heehee,serves the teacher who's marking my compo right! That's revenge for chu <3

Stayed back after school to hardcore Math for Paper 1 tomorrow.Gosh.Miss Winni Tan was moodswinging at me and Nazihah while sweet-talking to Atiqa and Yazid! Hahaha! So,in the end,while she was facing another direction making a phonecall,Nazihah and myself sneaked away to the canteen,leaving Atiqa and Yazid under her wrath! So stupid.These memories of secondary school will be missed.

no more being emotional over stupid and pointless stuff.
i'm reborned a better person.

No,not anymore.

2011-08-21T21:42:00.003+08:00

This one's for you and me,

living out our dreams.

We're all right where we should be

Lift my arms out wide I open my eyes

And now all I wanna see

Is a sky full of lighters

I,Nurra Safirah Bte Sadali,have a dream.I want to walk under the shade of an umbrella in a thunderstorm with the guy I like.HAHA perangai cheebs.

PEACE TO THE WAR BABYYYY.

Here's a reality check for me and also for you : Let your guards down already.I hate you.Alot.And I swear we used to be so happy.What happened? FUCK YOU.Life has been good for you,uh? Just you wait 'til stupidity kicks into you.Those ducks would run away from you.I'll wait for that day,patiently.And I'll be there,too,not running but thanking you for the good show.

The best thing about tonight is we're not fighting.

2011-08-16T00:07:00.000+08:00

Hey.I've been in a down mood recently.Huge laughters now and then but,they're forced.

Dear parents,
I cried in my room just now,real hard.When sister's having her N prelims,all of you allowed her to stay in her room whatever etc.But when it comes to my turn,with my prelims coming next friday,both of you overtire me,expects me to help everyone and everywhere like I'm one fucking domestic maid,accuse me of slacking in the room and only thinking of myself.What? Why can't you give me time to do WHATEVER I want? Seriously.This drives me mentally tired.

Worse,my O Levels' Bio SPA Skills 3 is this Saturday.
&seriously mom,you're not the ONLY mother in Singapore who is tired just because you missed 1 hour of sleep to prepare food in the morning.Seriously.Reality check needed?

Teachers,I'm tired & my classmates are tired too.You all have to STOP giving homework and tests already.Just give us time to revise.DAMN IT.SERIOUSLY.PRELIMS IS NEXT WEEK.

I'm sad.I was blatantly ignored even though you noticed.

2011-08-14T01:17:00.000+08:00

I'M SORRY.
BUT I CAN'T HELP BEING COMPETITIVE AND WIN YOU.
WATCH ME SUCCEED.

What did I do to anger you?

2011-08-10T22:11:00.001+08:00

Adik-adik sekalian,sebelum kamu semua ada boyfriend,pergi belajar la dulu.Atau pergi makan ke.Kan lagi afdal masanya terluang.Okaylah,taknak jadi kaypoh..

Da,Nurra Safirah nak buat homework.English banyak nak complete.
THIS IS A CONSPIRACY.

2011-08-07T23:51:00.000+08:00

WHEN I WAS BY YOUR SIDE,HAVE YOU EVER CARED?

Remember,it was you who pushed me away.It was you who moved on alone.

This can't go on.

2011-08-06T22:25:00.000+08:00

It's not like in the past anymore.
We don't talk anymore.Even if we do,it won't last for max 3mins.We're going different paths,on our own already...even before graduation.We're too preoccupied with our own aims to even care about each other anymore.I admit : I was selfish,I was self-centered.All these while,I was only thinking of myself.

And again,I lost a friend due to selfishness.

I can't study.Even though prelims is in a few more weeks time.I just don't seem to bother about O Levels.
Fuck it,this ain't going right.

I'm so jealous of my other friends.Like,most of them have got tuition classes.For example,take my POA class.Almost three-quarter of them attend POA tuition.But me? I'm only relying on school teachers.For math,most of my friends passed their recent tests.Yet,I failed by half mark when I have yet to fail a single math test this year.SCREW SAFIRAH'S COMPLACENCY.

There IS something going on between both of you.Human have eyes,they saw what you intended to conceal.

Masih Lagi Ada Harapan

2011-07-29T21:12:00.002+08:00

Most of my close friends would have already known this because I complained to them already! So proud of myself that I didn't vent my anger on anyone and instead,calm myself down.

What problem does she have on me? Why must she and co stare at me everytime I walk past her? Hi awak,janganlah stare stare.Saya tak curi suami awak la.Jangan risau ok.Awak pergi belajar untuk N Level awak lebih afdal tau.Lagi berapa minggu je ni.Jangan buang masa.

Sigh,people these days.Don't they know that it's RUDE TO STARE?

I fell in love with Yovie & Nuno's Dia Milikku.

Dia untukku,bukan untukmu

Dia milikku,bukan milikmu

Pergilah kamu,jangan kau ganggu

Biarkan aku mendekatinya

Kamu tak akan mungkin mendapatkannya

Karena dia berikan aku pertanda cinta

Janganlah kamu banyak bermimpi...

Dia Untuk aku

Awwww sho sweet.Kay,I can melt if anyone ever say those words to me.Like,whut.It's really touching la.

You know,I've totally given up the hope I've been holding on for so long.
You'll stay as a part of my beautiful memories of life.
And...I will never forget you,ever.
If there's a chance,let's be friends,once again.

2011-07-24T22:16:00.000+08:00

Why the hell songs featured on my blog get popular every time I change them?
Sucha bloody coincidence when a day,or two,after changing my playlist,some songs on 'em are trending.
It's fucking difficult to be unique and get out of the trend,troublesome too.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO TIANG SIJIA :D

Tell me you're up to it.

2011-07-18T23:15:00.000+08:00

AWKWARDNESS AT IT'S BEST.

I'M UNIQUE.

So,currently....

"I'm eating Loacker's Napolitan Quadratini :D

Childhood's favourite comfort food!"

(Ate the whole damn packet in 7 hours)

"Why hey,nice expression,HAHA,

Look look at my new home button sticker.PANDA!"

"Wow,I actually did my homework.

Yeay damn the 38 more days to hell"

KAY GOTTA STOP UPDATING MY BLOG.

Know whut? I'm currently revising Chemistry and SS notes for the test on Wednesday,

Sucha good girl...

Harry Potter bby,wait for me okay.I'm gonna watch for the last time.Thanks for making perfect the last decade of my life.We won't meet again,so make it worthwhile alright.

(and I wonder how can some not like Harry Potter? He's a legend)

SEE YOU NEXT TIME BABIES.MIA-ING UNTIL GOD-KNOWS-WHEN.

OUR GLORY DAYS.

2011-07-17T22:17:00.002+08:00

HAVE YOU SEEN THIS WOMAN?

My teeth,no matter if I brush 'em or not,they're still white&glossy.

Hahah,okay.I was trying to relieve some stress.Tsk,whut to do? I'mma busy woman.Heeeee!
And also because I look gorgeous and sexy with my messy hair and new facial expressions which my Dad taught me whenever someone shows me fuck.Oh,and I'm showing off my suddenly-there-after-I-lied-down mini ponytail.Gomn,if only it's there every morning,then I can go to school with 'em cute sprouts.

Okay,gotta stop being(acting,if you insist) cute.
HOMEWORK STILL ON MY DESK.

Wait,I'll change the collage in a jiffy.Into a better one.I'm obsessed with photo collages and it's all Azizah's fault,after she made one for me to commemorate my stepping down from band. (Hey,I've changed it!)

p.s. Saw my new wooden chair? Hahah,against my mother's screaming and my father's glare,I lugged one of the two chairs into my room from the living room :) Sorry parents.This chair is gonna be here for good 'cos I need a comfortable foundation for my bigass butt.

MAY PEACE BE UPON YOU,BABIES.
MAMA WILL BE BACK SOON&UPDATE.

It's a quarter after one.

2011-07-16T18:05:00.001+08:00

MY HAIR IS RUINED AFTER BEING SCORCHED BY THE SUN DURING CIP.
Ah,well.I had make-up CIP a few days ago at Sembawang Park at 2pm+.Grouped with Aqid,Yazid and Manpreet,we picked rubbish semangatly.Whut! And Matin's group found a packet of lubricated condom,which Aqid opened and exclaimed 'disgusting'.What a contradiction,when he and co are perverts themselves.

After 35mins of beach-cleaning,we still had an hour left to go.So,we slacked under a shady spot whilst YiJun's group was passionate about their task.Uhuh.And Aqid called me 'Maid of The Beach' -.-
Yea and stupid Yazid dared me into the boys' toilet by placing my phone inside.STUPID.

Then after CIP,lo and behold,gotta go for POA remedial.Ended up doing 3 questions after having mistakes in the first two.Thanks to Aqid,AGAIN,for teaching me patiently and letting me reinforce on prepaid and accruals.I'm hoping for atleast a distinction for the next test so I don't have to go for remedials.

I'm just so fucking sad now.BRB going emosi! Hahah.
Eh eh,check out my collage.Wow,super nice sial.Wowwww.Hhaah,exaggeration.I need to buy a photo editing software,can't rely on freebies anymore.Why? Look,half the pictures are cut off :'(

2011-07-13T20:16:00.000+08:00

Never mind,I'll find someone like you.

I wish nothing but the best for you,too.

Don't forget me,I begged,I remember you said

Sometimes it last in love,and sometimes it hurts instead.

Nothing compares,no worries or care.

Regrets and mistakes,they're memories made.

Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

OFF TO SOME STUDYING AND DEPRESSING.

2011-07-12T20:59:00.000+08:00

And who do you think you are,

Running 'round leaving scars.

Collecting your jar of hearts,

And tearing love apart.

You're gonna catch a cold,

From the ice inside your soul.

So don't come back for me,

You don't get to get me back.

Try making us possible.

2011-07-10T01:01:00.002+08:00

TELL ME,ARE YOU JEALOUS OF ME? SERIOUSLY.
If you had asked nicely,I would have backed out.I would give in because you're my friend.Only SiJia understands me.Only SiJia know hows much that morsel of happiness mean to me.Only SiJia knows how long I've been a bystander and watching from afar.Trust me,only SiJia knows.

I just feel like crying,real hard.My studies in a mess,disruptive family,unimpressive MT Oral and whatsnot.
I'm just so afraid of being suicidal.I'm afraid of giving up life.

No,Safirah.Pull through.Improve your other subjects.MT is over.

you breached my trust

2011-07-05T22:38:00.000+08:00

Curse the chicken.Mum left a chicken on the table just now.Even though I am already filled to the brim of my stomach,I just can't let others eat that chicken,can I? So,I ate it.And damn the spiciness.Stupid.It's burning my lips.And the numbness of my mouth just won't go away even after gallons of water I gulped down.

Confirm my grandmother would be like "Nama aja orang boyan.Tapi tak tahan pedas.Ada-ada sahaja kau ni,Sapirah.Nenek masak sambal pun kau tak makan,masak ketam,bawangnya yang engkau kutip.Macam mana nak sihat kalau begitu?"

(she speak total indonesian accent,and perfect bahasa melayu.Wow.Yea,to her I'm Sapirah)

And my aunt would be like "Tak mati pe makan bawang! Kau cobak makan satu,tengok mati tak?"

And my mum would be like "Kau same je macam bapak kau! Nak makan pun cerewet.Alaaa,bawang sikit bukannye boleh nampak.Makan je la! Orang kat negeri lain makan pasir tau tak! Bersyukur!"

But,the truth is,I can detect onions from 200nautical miles away so women's cooking don't fool me.

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH ABOUT FOOD.2 DAYS LEFT TO MT ORAL O'LEVELS.

We can go far,if you want.

2011-07-01T23:17:00.001+08:00

I'mma happy girl.Happy happy!

Had 2.4km training just now.Bustard,my stamina drastically drop since last year.Finished in 16.10mins.Hah,at least I passed.And most of us were feeling unwell after the run.Whats not,we started to run without any warm-ups and it was too sudden for our bodies to adapt to the strenuous exercise.Now,to just get the timing to decrease.Haiyo haiyo.Anyways,I grew 2cm! From 151cm to 153cm.Heeeeee.

My maths really cannot make it! Hahahah! Omg,I can do this! Because Coach Jeremiah already threw my psychological factor of 'having doubts on my intelligence' into the rubbish bin,and it went to the incinerator.Yes,I wrote that.

So tired.Keep on staying up late to complete assignments,and I have no time to do revision.Oh gosh.

"AKU SUKA KAU,BODOH."
(wtf,I heard some lovesick girl shouting this into her phone)

Mungkin akan kembalinya nanti,

Yang terpisah tanpa rela hati.

Too much kills.

2011-06-28T21:40:00.002+08:00

Every night,I pray and wish to my wishing stars,

Please,don't cross my path with that person anymore.

Something that has died,don't have it back alive.

From the moment I said my last goodbye,it was all totally over.

Goodbye Nurra Safirah of 3 years and 6 months.

It's time to start afresh.

THERE YOU GO,STRAYING AWAY FROM ME.

2011-06-25T03:06:00.000+08:00

WEB-CAMING WITH AMALINA NOW.AND IT'S 2.46AM.

We're trying to keep ourselves up and awake completing assignments.And we've just finished our EL TYS Compre! *claps*

And while I'm busy doing Bio Paper 1,she's surfing the net.Good life,huh?

This always happen every holidays.Last-minute homework warrior! Woohoo.I will never have another experience like this again,bless me....

And by the way,Atiqa and Amalina came over to my house to complete our homework.THEY SHAMELESSLY TOLD ME TO FEATURE THEIR NAME HERE,SPECIALLY.

SO HERE'S A BIG SHOUT OUT TO THEM:

Nur Atiqa Bte Abdul Razak and Nur Amalina Bte Mohamed.

Obviously and sad to say,we did more entertainment than completing the homework itself.Watched LCC,Juventus against SgU16,ate and plainly gossiped.Hahah,good life,huh?! So while they're at it,as usual,Amalina and Atiqa just had to meddle around with the webcam.Just to recap,Amalina IS a camwhore.

Heh,THIS,fyi,she IS still a student from Orchid Park SECONDARY SCHOOL.Ni case da berangan nak masuk SP.

HAAAAA.SO I'M BACK TO DOING HOMEWORK! Wait,no.

Step hardworking..tsktsk.

LOL AT HER STRETCHING.

I'M GOING OUT WITH TIANG SIJIA TOMORROW.I HAFTA BUY THOSE SHOES.

I'm forever supporting the U16s,even if they don't have a chance against the Flamengos this Sunday.Second placing is better than none.

I've seen through you.

2011-06-24T14:27:00.000+08:00

Ew.I'm discriminating against people with tattoos.Seriously.Tattoos aren't even body art,they're pollution.
And I basically just hate tattoos and cigarettes and alcohol.Why do something that is detrimental to your health and disfiguring your body? Like whaaaat.I know they have a choice,and I'd better shut up.Heh!

You know,I've seen many super gorgeous people,women and men,turned ugly and disgusting once they taint their skin with ink and with a cigarette in their mouths.It's really a pity and a great loss to the body's owner.

OKAY BYE.

One thing is for certain.

2011-06-16T18:35:00.001+08:00

Anyone heard of this guy,Choi Sung Bong? He became an overnight star after appearing on Korea's Got Talent and sang Nella Fantasia.I don't know how or why he got the hype because,aren't all opera singers able to sing like him? Like,uhuh? I'm still trying to figure out why the audience in the studio cried.

Maybe,I'm just not normal? I only remembered having goosebumps when :

Graduating ceremony at JPS and hearing Vitamin C's Graduation Song.
2008 Outdoor SYF where the whole band performed with our hearts.
Reading up about Leftenan Adnan and his troops.
Aqid sang 'What Are Words' during this year's Speech Day.
Watched Pensel.

[add in:]

Amalina/Atiqa/SiJia/Nazihah sends me encouraging messages.

Really,I just have no absolute feelings right? HEARTLESS.

I shall start doing homework.....NEXT WEEK. CUT! BYE!

Putus nyambung.

2011-06-14T16:13:00.000+08:00

At this rate,I might as well ask the school to reserve a spot in the school next year.Look at my Math.Terrible beyond words.Tch.Can't even qualify for the nursing course.

You know what's the most ridiculous thing on earth? Not my results,that one not yet. But,having a revolutionary in Third Symphony a week before the concert.

Had a pair-study with Sheron solely on Math just now.Stress! I found out I lacked alot for Math and I'm gonna buck up.Like,seriously wake up from my seventh heaven.I am going all out for Math,Physics and Chemistry.Then on to SS,Geog,POA and Biology.How'd that sound? Less than 5 months left.

I'm going to start on holiday homework later.English and Math.Then I'd do my SS homework in between the bus trips from school to NYP and TRCC,or maybe in between breaks.Ya ya,band is priority but my studies last me my lifetime and I'm not going to sacrifice my future just because of a CCA.

Promise me,

Don't go back to being cold tomorrow.

I'll make sure you don't.

Whenever you talk,

2011-06-12T17:09:00.001+08:00

Please don't be in love with someone else,Please don't have somebody waiting on you

No food stays in my stomach for long.Just recovered from a fever and now I'm feeling super nauseous.I am really legend for being sick thrice in three months.Bodoh.

Concert in a few days' time.So not ready.And they have an audacity to change parts.See,if my section don't play well,we're labelled the weakest section.But look,who's the cause for this? And there's this alumni who accused me of not doing my QM job.Uhuh,he knows nothing of my hardwork so he might as well not say a thing.I'm looking forward to stepping-down day,pronto.

Plan to watch Insidious failed misearably.So,if anybody got their hands on the DVD,please tell me and we can watch it together at your house,eh? Hahahaha! Even though did not get to lay my eyes on Insidious,I went out with some friends later that day.And they made that day the best :)

I'm trying to be her,so that you'd notice me.
But,I guess,such thing would never happen.
Because you're too fond of her.

HYPED UP

2011-06-06T19:46:00.000+08:00

Went to Polyclinic straight after the lesson for the day ended.Waited a stupid 3 hours with uncivilised orang utans and my patience finally paid off! I finally got the referral letter.Wooh.I'm gonna spam call NSC everyday until they give up and give me an earlier time slot.

I want to watch Insidious tomorrow...sad.It's effing NC16.This is one of the cons of having late birthdays.Speaking of birthdays,it's Aqid's birthday today.That emo guy.Oh ya,anyway,I intend to sneak in with Nazihah.With the help of Nurra Syarinny,of course.

Cannot take it ah.It's like,BIOLOGYBIOLOGYBIOLOGY FOREVER.Super fucked up elective.I am sick of studying,learning and revising for Bio Test.And Bio SPA.POA is not even close to the torture that Bio students are having.HAIYO.

LOL.I HAVE NO TIME FOR ALL THESE NONSENSE,SO DON'T WORRY :) I AM FRIENDLY WITH EVERYBODY LA.

However long the night,the dawn will break

2011-06-02T23:02:00.001+08:00

BUSY BUMBLE BEE!

EXTRA CLASSES AFTER CLASSES.AND IT'S WORSE THAN NORMAL SCHOOL DAYS.

Sometimes,I wished I wasn't in Express stream.Like,students in Malaysia complete their syallabus in like 3-4 years so why are we cramming that amount of work in 2 years?! I musn't compare...comparison is similar to assumption,the mother of all mistakes.

I am going to cram study,super intensive,during this June holidays.After stepping down,of course.I can't believe 4 years passed by so fast,and I'm already stepping down.It felt like only yesterday when I received the phonecall to go for the Band introduction at ITR 1.Sigh,I've matured this much,huh? I made a lot of friends in band,especially with juniors,and I can't bear to leave them! It's like,we spent most of our time together,growing together,and just getting to know each other very well...then we leave.

Time,revert back to 2008,where we were just practising for Outdoor SYF.Then,let the same people come into my life.I just those memories back,damnit! But,they say all good things must come to an end.So,I guess,the end is very near already....

“Love can sometimes be magic.

But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion.”

- Javan

Sebelum Cahaya

2011-05-30T21:57:00.000+08:00

If you're happy and you know it,shout Hooray,RAYHOO.

I am not amused at the measly effort I put in for my MT papers.I'm prepared to re-take it at the end of the year if I don't get my As.But Cikgu Maslin said to focus on LC and Oral.So,see how things turn out.

So,tomorrow I will officially start my battle towards the rest of the 'O' Level Papers.I hope I'm prepared.

And my sister's birthday is the day after tomorrow,1st June.I don't know what to get for her...I think I shall just make a photobook for her :) No money.

Expectations = Disappointments.